Tuesday, February 20, 2007

healing words


Found these in my box of old stuffs, where i keep my yesteryears belongings, memories from my schooling days.



" dear naz, whatever your spm result might be, you are already a winner because you are a person who cares about doing your best, you care about trying to fulfill the expectations of your parents, you care about being a better person. Most of all, you are a winner because i know that u have tried your best for this coming spm. However you may perform in your spm, you are a special person because you have a warm heart and kind thoughts for others.."
- kak g, 9 th nov 1999



" ...As you are on the verge of "going away from the computer"..I'd like to offer some thoughts tht i got here tht i think might inspire you. Get out of home to study is a jihad, and whatever you do as long as u put your intentions on the path of Allah, all of your doings are good deeds. Make friends with as many people as you can..be good to them and show gratitude for what they have done to you. Money always be a big thing for human beings, but money can never buy friends. Money can never but the satisfaction of having good friends...money never buy the beautiful impression of you, and the upmost, money never buy a decent relationship with Allah. It's Allah who knows everything, anything for eternity..."
- a friend,somewhere between 2000 - 2001.


Sunday, February 11, 2007

betrayal of trust


" there is nothing in the world like the devotion of a married woman - it is a thing no married man knows anything about " - Oscar Wilde

hmm...

know what makes infidelity in marriage seems so unforgivable..? Because it is covered with thick layers of lies. That u just can't bring urself to believe a single word tht comes out from ur cheating spouse's mouth ever again.

I know..saying is alwys easier. " I forgive u, let's just forget the whole thing and rebuild our life". But the truth is, it's never gonna be the same . The picture of ur beloved life partner sprawled naked next to another woman..will never be erased from ur mind, no matter how u try to. And the thought that this person whom u love and trust with all ur heart has betrayed you,..u can never look at him with the same eyes again.

Trust is a very precious thing. We dont just trust everyone, and to gain someone's trust is not something tht u could attain in a day or two, might even take years. And once that trust is betrayed, destroyed by one act of stupidity, to regain the same level of trust and create the familiar ambience of love and affection that was once flourishing happily in ur marriage life..well, let just say it's not going to be an easy work. If it ever succeed.

I've just watched 'Gubra'. Found myself thinking about the story, the part where Arif who appears to be a loving husband and good son-in-law..yet at the same time philandering behind his wife's back. I tried putting myself in the 'lonely husband's' shoes, using reason like " i was lonely, u were away all the time " to validate the action of sleeping with another person, but i can't even imagine it. I can't comprehend how anyone with a sane mind and good conscience could lie so discreetly to someone u vowed u love. How can u look into ur wife's eyes and say all those sweet words of love knowing the fact that u're guilty like sin behind her back. How can u make love to ur wife when at the same time u know ( and u very well know..! ) that the thing of urs was inside someone else's just two nights ago..i just can't understand it!..( sorry for the harsh words used, i can get very emotional talking about this..).

Value the trust given to us. Remember that not everything can be corrected by just saying " im sorry ". Time will definitely heal the wound, but the scar will remains, as remnants of yesterday's hurt and betrayal.

Dont be defeated by the brief passing of lust and temptation.
It's just not worth it.

Monday, February 05, 2007

it's the small things..=]


Know wht i like most..? the small, ordinary things in life.....


Like looking up at the blue morning sky or staring at the black starry night.
Watching toddlers tumbling around to stand and take the first step, fall down and try again. The smell of rain, as i stand at the window watching it pouring down heavily. Old couples who walk together, each waiting for the other, and i would wonder to myself.." what keep them together till old age..?"
And the look of my loved ones, smiling or laughing at something.
I like all that.


Ordinary, but for me those are meaningful moments and things in life. Small and insignificant to some ppl, but it gives a certain glow on my face, a special feelings in my heart.


I remember one time when i was sitting for my final exam last year. I was on my way to campus around 12.30 pm when my phone rings. It was him, calling from the UK. But what make tht call so fondly remembered in my mind is the sound of his groggy voice, calling me in the middle of the night, awake from sleep just to wish me luck for my final exam. Hmm.....and i think, that was one of the moment when i realised that i have fallen for this man.


It does not have to be big things, what matters is that it touches the heart. And it's always the spontaneus, sincere deeds of others tht warms the heart and bring smile to the face...


Take time to appreciate the small things in life. Take time to see the beauty of the ordinary events in our everyday living. And take time to look at our loved ones from a distance, without them realising that they are being watched. Look at their smiling face when they laugh merrily, and feel the sudden burst of love pouring like waterfall inside you. It' s a trully wonderful feeling, ..really..=]








Saturday, February 03, 2007

tooth saviour vs tooth slayer


Smtmes i feel like i care about my patient's teeth more than they care about their own ...

drjustme : encik, sebenarnye gigi encik ni boleh diselamatkan lagi..kita masih boleh tampal, ..
Encik X : tak payahlah..cabut je. malas saya nak layan dh, dok sakit2 nih..
drjustme : ermm..saya boleh tampal, kalau encik mahu. Bila kita dh buang yang rosak kat dalam, sakitnye akan hilang..
Encik X : takpelah doktor, saya tak mahu dia sakit lagi..cabut je.
drjustme : well..


drjustme : puan..masalah gigi puan yang bnyk bergoyang ni, ialah disebabkan gusi puan yang tak sihat. Penyakit gusi yang dibiarkan tak dirawat menyebabkan gigi akan bergoyang, kerana sokongan gigi dalam tulang sudah tak kuat. Kita boleh rawat penyakit gusi ni puan, tak perlu kita cabut bnyk gigi sgt..
puan Y : takpelah doktor..cabut je lah, nanti saya nak buat gigi palsu..
drjustme : memang kita boleh buat gigi palsu, tapi takkan sama dgn gigi asal. Kalau gigi asal masih boleh diselamatkan, kita try save and jaga..drpd cabut dn pakai gigi palsu.
puan Y : takpe doktor, saya memang nak buat gigi palsu, cantik skett..
drjustme : tapi puann..( sigh )

W : doktor, tampal gigi dpt MC takk?
drjustme : kalau tampal , kita tak bg MC encik..sbb tak teruk sgt..kan
W : ohh..kalau mcm tu cabut jelah..
drjustme : Ehh..encik, takkan nak dicabut, gigi ni kuat lagi..bila dh ditampal, lama boleh pakai ni..
W : cabut je..saya nak MC lah..saya tak pergi keje tau hari ni..
drjustme : saya bagi time slip, kita tampal je, sayang gigi encik ni nak dicabut..
W : tak payah, tak payah... gigi saya..cabut je.
drjustme : hmm...


drjustme : ..saya sgt concerned dgn keadaan kesihatan mulut encik ni. Encik ni muda lagi, tapi keadaan kesihatan dan kebersihan mulut sgt membimbangkan..
encik A : heheeh ( sengih2..) saya berus gigi saya doktor..
drjustme: boleh saya tahu, dalam sehari berapa kali encik berus gigi..?
encik A : ermm..2 kali biasanye, kalau penat atau mengantuk..malam tak gosok hehehe..
drjustme: hmm..hari ni saya boleh scaling gigi encik, tapi mulai hari ni, berus gigi jangan kurang 2 kali sehari, terutama sekali waktu malam..
encik A : yelahh..saya cuba.

just recalling a few examples. I think some ppl dont realise how precious their teeth are, until they lose it. And trust me, false teeth or dentures are NOT even near in comparison to our natural teeth.

So people, love our teeth, take good care of them...( trust me, clean teeth, fresher breath..tht's the most important thing,..)