Thursday, November 08, 2007

love letters



Some time ago, in 2006,...

" what are u doing..?"
" im writing letters.."
" to him..?"
" yes..."
" what for..?"
" saja..."
" better dont..one day it will be an evidence.."
" huh? what do u mean by evidence.?" ( looking up from the letters )
" of something that was once there, but it ended...it will be an evidence of ur past relationships. Why leave behind a 'black-and-white' evidence ..? Just contact thru phone sj lah,...."
i looked at her in disbelief. An evidence of a past relationship..?! What is she talking about, preparing me for a relationship break ups..? How can anyone be so cynical-unromantic-pessimistic about life, more else love...haisshh....

One thing here, i never intend to end the relationship. Secondly, yes, love letters will one day be an evidence. But for me, instead of putting it as the evidence of an ugly crime tht was once commited, i see it as a memory of sthg sweet that i want to bring along with me in the future. Though we never know what God has in store for us, with the power of prayers, insyaAllah...i optimistically believe that if our intention is good, good things will come..=]

My father keeps his collection of love letters with my mom, from the first neatly-typed letter from him, to the scribbled two-lines notes which my mom would later receive in like..errmm,once in a blue moon..?? (..heh..guys, the early efforts never last ehh, i guess it fades with time.. ). It's almost unbelievable, looking at his unromantic ways, the man who's not used to showing affection in public and feelings to people. I remember my ayah tells me the journey of their love letters, how my dad decided to type his letters using the old, clunking noisy typewriter, just because he didnt want to expose his almost illegible handwriting to my mom. And i could recall the look of joy and love on his face as he entailed the memories of their love letters. He laminated the letters and keep it in a file, saying that one day he would open it and share with us and his grandchildrens, much to my mother's horrified glare at his idea. hehe..

Why do we write letters, ..? Because we're thinking of that person, feeling the sudden urge to talk to him, while at the same time having no idea what it is. Because we're missing him/her, so bad that we have to let it out by 'talking' to him through writings. And also, because we want to tell something, saying things we know we wouldnt able to say it out verbally. Something that only love letters could do to express the voices inside us.


Quoting something i read in The Sun newspaper, Feb 2007, an article by Eva Neumann " Romance in Letters',.."Feelings that are expressed in words can be re-read and re-lived ". True.

Well..i write letters. Still do. Heh..try doing it once,ppl.. write a love letter to that special someone, and see the effect it has on your loved ones...;]


" in times of crises, it can help to remind couples what their love is all about.." - Heliane Shenelle, family therapist in Cologne




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